Allah,
jika ia jodohku, maka dekatkan-lah ia denganku.
namun bila ia bukan jodohku, jauhkanlah dan dekatkanlah aku pada jodohku.
Thursday, 21 April 2011
Saturday, 12 March 2011
untukmu disana, E!
aku tahu kau tidak akan mengerti apa yang aku tulis dalam note ini. tapi aku berjanji padamu,tulisan ini adalah untukmu.
ya, hanya untukmu.
dan ketahuilah sayang, aku sedang menggunakan bahasa ibuku untuk mencurahkan apa yang ada dalam hatiku dan tetap berusaha agar kau tak mengetahui ini.
bukan, bukan aku tak ingin kau mengerti tulisan ini.
tapi aku hanya tak ingin menambah bebanmu lagi dengan aku mengatakan ini dalam bahasa inggris agar kau mengerti.
apa aku terlalu baik hingga tak ingin menambah bebanmu padahal dalam hatiku aku ingin kau mengerti perasaanku ini.
16 januari 2011, aku menemukanmu.
kau tahu bagaimana rasanya saat itu?
aku sungguh bahagia saat itu. sempat berfikir aku tak akan bisa bertahan tanpamu.
kau meyakinkan aku, aku lah satu satunya orang yang bisa kau ajak bicara. aku bahagia saat itu.
tapi aku tak boleh egois kan? aku harus membagimu dengan satu orang lagi yang paling kau sayang, dan juga pekerjaanmu.
hari ke hari, aku berusaha mengerti kesibukanmu, kau pun berusaha untuk mengerti kesibukanku.
sungguh, aku bahagia denganmu, tak pernah sebelumnya aku menemukan pria yang seperti ini.
seperti apa yang benar benar aku inginkan.
semakin hari, semakin mengerti bagaimana sibuknya dirimu, mengapa aku tak juga memutuskan hubungan ini?
mungkin karena kamu adalah suatu zat yang bila aku pakai dalam dosis yang tepat akan sangat membuatku bahagia, namun bila dikonsumsi dalam dosis yang berlebihan akan sangat membunuhku.
ya, membunuhku.
kau tahu mengapa sayang?
pada tanggal 7 kemarin, kau bilang kau akan memberi tahuku apa yang akan terjadi padamu.
aku menunggumu, sepanjang hari.
namun kau tak jua datang.
apa kau mau tahu perasaanku saat itu?
saat itu aku takut sayang, takut sesuatu yg jelek terjadi padamu.
tapi sampai sekarang (9 maret 2011, 22.00) kau tak juga memberiku kabar apa yang terjadi padamu.
kau membuatku semakin takut sayang.
aku takut kau kenapa-napa. tapi itu mungkin tidak akan terlalu aku khawatirkan apabila kau
me-respons bbm, email, chat, telfon, dan juga sms yang sudah berkali kali aku kirim untukmu.
aku takut sayang, sangat takut.
takut bila engkau akan meninggalkan aku seperti mantanku terdahulu meninggalkan aku.
aku trauma pada hal itu, dan sungguh tak ingin hal itu terulang kembali. :(
jangan, jangan seperti ini sayang kalau kau ingin meninggalkan aku..
setidaknya katakan ini baik baik padaku.
aku akan coba mengerti alasanmu, walaupun akan sangat berat untukku melepasmu.
aku takut..
ya Allah, apa yang harus aku lakukan sekarang?
haruskah aku tetap meninggalkannya?
tapi bukankah dia bilang
suatu hari nanti, aku akan menjemputmu hanya untuk naik ke petronas tower, makan sushi dan menonton film bersama, Ratu-ku.
haruskah aku tetap menunggunya?
berapa lama ya Allah?
bisa saja aku tetap menunggunya, tapi aku tak tahu seberapa lama aku dapat menahannya.
beri aku pencerahan tentang dia ya Allah..
aku hanya ingin tumbuh tua bersama dia.
How do I say goodbye to someone I never really had? Why do my tears fall so endlessly for someone who was never really mine? Why is it I miss someone I was never really with? And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine?
i miss you.
Sunday, 6 March 2011
need you now
And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now
a little part of need you now lyrics
hope ericieta meant together God,
xoxo,
ericieta "g"
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now
a little part of need you now lyrics
hope ericieta meant together God,
xoxo,
ericieta "g"
Monday, 28 February 2011
28.02.2011
E: "didn't your housemates keep wonder why you always on your laptop?"
C: "i told them i'm chatting with y boyfriend. do you mind that?"
"no, i dont mind.
i am your boyfriend and slave.
you are my girlfriend and queen"
C: " (K) "
E: " (L) "
C: " (L)
what's that means actually?
E: "i gave you my heart. it's bigger than a kiss"
E: "hehe... did you find her a scorpio man?"
C: "me?
you want me with scorpio man?"
E: "no... for your friend
I don't want you with another man"
E: "i think you are my destiny my Queen"
guess today was more than enough to make me fly ;)
hope we really are belong together God
xoxo,
Ericieta "g"
Thursday, 24 February 2011
daily dose of vitamines
i remember,
today 23rd of February 2011, around 12.30 pm malaysia time,
he said he is going to come here if our relationship going good for the next few months at the end of this year, which means on December..
no, he didn't say that.. he promised/
i asked him to not hurry..
then what he said is: "i'll go there once we're ready"
wew, what a relieve..
but God, please just dont make me wait too long to meet him. i really wanted to see him soon.
i said that is just because i dont want him to think too fast.. he should think carefully.
but yes! deep inside my heart, i want him to come here soon
he said, i am his daily dose of vitamines.
can i believe that, God?? is it true?
wish all my dreams with him coming true
xoxo,
ericieta "g"
today 23rd of February 2011, around 12.30 pm malaysia time,
he said he is going to come here if our relationship going good for the next few months at the end of this year, which means on December..
no, he didn't say that.. he promised/
i asked him to not hurry..
then what he said is: "i'll go there once we're ready"
wew, what a relieve..
but God, please just dont make me wait too long to meet him. i really wanted to see him soon.
i said that is just because i dont want him to think too fast.. he should think carefully.
but yes! deep inside my heart, i want him to come here soon
he said, i am his daily dose of vitamines.
can i believe that, God?? is it true?
wish all my dreams with him coming true
xoxo,
ericieta "g"
Sunday, 20 February 2011
i miss him so badly now
God,
i know i cant be selfish, he's with the person he loves so much now. i know he will back soon.
but.. message me at least. i really miss him
i guess he doesn't miss me at all while i miss him too bad now.
i know i cant be selfish, he's with the person he loves so much now. i know he will back soon.
but.. message me at least. i really miss him
i guess he doesn't miss me at all while i miss him too bad now.
Friday, 18 February 2011
when a scorpio woman meets a pisces man
Scorpio Woman and Pisces Man Compatibility
Famous Scorpio-Pisces Couples: Demi Moore and Bruce Willis, Goldie Hawn and Mark Russell, Nicolette Sheridan and Michael Bolton, Roseanne and Tom Arnold, Jamie Lee Curtis and Christopher Guest
One of those near ideal matches, both temper the other and bring out the best. In my opinion and experience, water signs (Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces) need to stick with each other because of their depth and capacity for feeling plus their need to connect and bond, which the air, fire and earth people don’t understand. Water signs have the capacity to be deeply wounded if they interact with the more casual, utilitarian or “sporting” types. Furthermore, water signs never want to end anything so it can be a dream-come-true to find someone else who feels the same way. Many astrologers have written perceptively about how hard it is to be a “Dionysian” man, a Pisces male, in our culture. It is the very antithesis of hard logic and forthright action we associate with men. Having a strong, understanding Scorpio woman by your side can be a life saver, literally a lighthouse on the shores of a stormy sea. Whereas the soft, dreamy fish takes the sometime bitter vindictive edge off the scorpion’s sting. There may be no better match than this one.
How to Attract a Pisces Man as a Scorpio Woman: Your seductive charms are all you need. He will respond to your vibration as a magnet. Once you have drawn him into your force field, your receptive strength and understandingare enough to make him yours, all else being equal. The attraction between two water signs far transcends language, even body language, and relies heavily on instinct and animal magnetism instead, such things as the scent of a woman. As soon as you begin to talk, you’ll realize he “knows things about you” that he really has no way of knowing. Get use to it. You are dealing with a magic force of psychic proportions and soulful depth. Imagine what a great lover he''ll be.
How to Attract a Scorpio Woman as a Pisces Man: The natural instinct of a Scorpio woman should tell her of your interest and intentions through the ethers. The most perceptive creature of all the zodiac has caught your eye and is about to draw you magically toward her. Every Scorpio woman believes in only one kind of love – love at first sight! With her it is an immediate "Yes, completely" or "No, never." You can enjoy the deep soulful connection you feel as she looks into your eyes—unlike other women, she doesn’t look away but meets your steady gaze. The merging has begun.
Degree of Romance: There is no more romantic combination in the zodiac. Pisces courts a lifetime with music, candlelight and flowers, personal poetry and an adoration approaching ecstasy. Scorpio understands and willingly receives.
Degree of Passion: These two experience the kind of passion most people just read about. It is deep and true to their natures to love only one, only one way, forever.
Degree of Friendship: It’s a lot more than that. it’s like the kind of friendship men develop in battle when you are willing to put your life into each other’s hands.
Degree of Marriage: Superb.
Progression of Relationship: It becomes emotionally intimate almost right away. Pisces experiences such a feeling of peace and relief.
Sex: Here is a poem by metaphysical poet John Donne that describes the experience of two souls merging above two bodies and becoming one and the soulful experience that orgasm is like a small death.
One of those near ideal matches, both temper the other and bring out the best. In my opinion and experience, water signs (Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces) need to stick with each other because of their depth and capacity for feeling plus their need to connect and bond, which the air, fire and earth people don’t understand. Water signs have the capacity to be deeply wounded if they interact with the more casual, utilitarian or “sporting” types. Furthermore, water signs never want to end anything so it can be a dream-come-true to find someone else who feels the same way. Many astrologers have written perceptively about how hard it is to be a “Dionysian” man, a Pisces male, in our culture. It is the very antithesis of hard logic and forthright action we associate with men. Having a strong, understanding Scorpio woman by your side can be a life saver, literally a lighthouse on the shores of a stormy sea. Whereas the soft, dreamy fish takes the sometime bitter vindictive edge off the scorpion’s sting. There may be no better match than this one.
How to Attract a Pisces Man as a Scorpio Woman: Your seductive charms are all you need. He will respond to your vibration as a magnet. Once you have drawn him into your force field, your receptive strength and understandingare enough to make him yours, all else being equal. The attraction between two water signs far transcends language, even body language, and relies heavily on instinct and animal magnetism instead, such things as the scent of a woman. As soon as you begin to talk, you’ll realize he “knows things about you” that he really has no way of knowing. Get use to it. You are dealing with a magic force of psychic proportions and soulful depth. Imagine what a great lover he''ll be.
How to Attract a Scorpio Woman as a Pisces Man: The natural instinct of a Scorpio woman should tell her of your interest and intentions through the ethers. The most perceptive creature of all the zodiac has caught your eye and is about to draw you magically toward her. Every Scorpio woman believes in only one kind of love – love at first sight! With her it is an immediate "Yes, completely" or "No, never." You can enjoy the deep soulful connection you feel as she looks into your eyes—unlike other women, she doesn’t look away but meets your steady gaze. The merging has begun.
Degree of Romance: There is no more romantic combination in the zodiac. Pisces courts a lifetime with music, candlelight and flowers, personal poetry and an adoration approaching ecstasy. Scorpio understands and willingly receives.
Degree of Passion: These two experience the kind of passion most people just read about. It is deep and true to their natures to love only one, only one way, forever.
Degree of Friendship: It’s a lot more than that. it’s like the kind of friendship men develop in battle when you are willing to put your life into each other’s hands.
Degree of Marriage: Superb.
Progression of Relationship: It becomes emotionally intimate almost right away. Pisces experiences such a feeling of peace and relief.
Sex: Here is a poem by metaphysical poet John Donne that describes the experience of two souls merging above two bodies and becoming one and the soulful experience that orgasm is like a small death.
THE ECSTACY.
by John Donne
by John Donne
WHERE, like a pillow on a bed,
A pregnant bank swell'd up, to rest
The violet's reclining head,
Sat we two, one another's best.
Our hands were firmly cemented
By a fast balm, which thence did spring ;
Our eye-beams twisted, and did thread
Our eyes upon one double string.
So to engraft our hands, as yet
Was all the means to make us one ;
And pictures in our eyes to get
Was all our propagation.
As, 'twixt two equal armies, Fate
Suspends uncertain victory,
Our souls—which to advance their state,
Were gone out—hung 'twixt her and me.
And whilst our souls negotiate there,
We like sepulchral statues lay ;
All day, the same our postures were,
And we said nothing, all the day.
If any, so by love refined,
That he soul's language understood,
And by good love were grown all mind,
Within convenient distance stood,
He—though he knew not which soul spake,
Because both meant, both spake the same—
Might thence a new concoction take,
And part far purer than he came.
This ecstasy doth unperplex
(We said) and tell us what we love ;
We see by this, it was not sex ;
We see, we saw not, what did move :
But as all several souls contain
Mixture of things they know not what,
Love these mix'd souls doth mix again,
And makes both one, each this, and that.
A single violet transplant,
The strength, the colour, and the size—
All which before was poor and scant—
Redoubles still, and multiplies.
When love with one another so
Interanimates two souls,
That abler soul, which thence doth flow,
Defects of loneliness controls.
We then, who are this new soul, know,
Of what we are composed, and made,
For th' atomies of which we grow
Are souls, whom no change can invade.
But, O alas ! so long, so far,
Our bodies why do we forbear?
They are ours, though not we ; we are
Th' intelligences, they the spheres.
We owe them thanks, because they thus
Did us, to us, at first convey,
Yielded their senses' force to us,
Nor are dross to us, but allay.
On man heaven's influence works not so,
But that it first imprints the air ;
For soul into the soul may flow,
Though it to body first repair.
As our blood labours to beget
Spirits, as like souls as it can ;
Because such fingers need to knit
That subtle knot, which makes us man ;
So must pure lovers' souls descend
To affections, and to faculties,
Which sense may reach and apprehend,
Else a great prince in prison lies.
To our bodies turn we then, that so
Weak men on love reveal'd may look ;
Love's mysteries in souls do grow,
But yet the body is his book.
And if some lover, such as we,
Have heard this dialogue of one,
Let him still mark us, he shall see
Small change when we're to bodies gone.
When It’s Over: It should never end because certainly neither one will ever get over the other and may never love again as well. This is part of their wordless understanding of one another and the level of trust they reach instinctively.
Our Rating: 10/10
A pregnant bank swell'd up, to rest
The violet's reclining head,
Sat we two, one another's best.
Our hands were firmly cemented
By a fast balm, which thence did spring ;
Our eye-beams twisted, and did thread
Our eyes upon one double string.
So to engraft our hands, as yet
Was all the means to make us one ;
And pictures in our eyes to get
Was all our propagation.
As, 'twixt two equal armies, Fate
Suspends uncertain victory,
Our souls—which to advance their state,
Were gone out—hung 'twixt her and me.
And whilst our souls negotiate there,
We like sepulchral statues lay ;
All day, the same our postures were,
And we said nothing, all the day.
If any, so by love refined,
That he soul's language understood,
And by good love were grown all mind,
Within convenient distance stood,
He—though he knew not which soul spake,
Because both meant, both spake the same—
Might thence a new concoction take,
And part far purer than he came.
This ecstasy doth unperplex
(We said) and tell us what we love ;
We see by this, it was not sex ;
We see, we saw not, what did move :
But as all several souls contain
Mixture of things they know not what,
Love these mix'd souls doth mix again,
And makes both one, each this, and that.
A single violet transplant,
The strength, the colour, and the size—
All which before was poor and scant—
Redoubles still, and multiplies.
When love with one another so
Interanimates two souls,
That abler soul, which thence doth flow,
Defects of loneliness controls.
We then, who are this new soul, know,
Of what we are composed, and made,
For th' atomies of which we grow
Are souls, whom no change can invade.
But, O alas ! so long, so far,
Our bodies why do we forbear?
They are ours, though not we ; we are
Th' intelligences, they the spheres.
We owe them thanks, because they thus
Did us, to us, at first convey,
Yielded their senses' force to us,
Nor are dross to us, but allay.
On man heaven's influence works not so,
But that it first imprints the air ;
For soul into the soul may flow,
Though it to body first repair.
As our blood labours to beget
Spirits, as like souls as it can ;
Because such fingers need to knit
That subtle knot, which makes us man ;
So must pure lovers' souls descend
To affections, and to faculties,
Which sense may reach and apprehend,
Else a great prince in prison lies.
To our bodies turn we then, that so
Weak men on love reveal'd may look ;
Love's mysteries in souls do grow,
But yet the body is his book.
And if some lover, such as we,
Have heard this dialogue of one,
Let him still mark us, he shall see
Small change when we're to bodies gone.
When It’s Over: It should never end because certainly neither one will ever get over the other and may never love again as well. This is part of their wordless understanding of one another and the level of trust they reach instinctively.
Our Rating: 10/10
retrieved from : http://zodiac-traits.com/pisces-man-scorpio-woman.html
may all of this oracle come true God! I Love Him.
xoxo.
ericieta
How Can I Not Love You
Cannot touch
Cannot hold
Cannot be together
Cannot love
Cannot kiss
Cannot have each other
Must be strong,
And we must let go
Cannot say
What our hearts must know
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
Cannot dream
Cannot share
Sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel
How we feel
Must pretend it's over
Must be brave,
And we must go on
Must not say,
What we've known all along
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
How can I not love you..
[[Musical Interlude]]
Must be brave,
And we must be strong
Cannot say,
What we've known all along.
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
How can I not love you..
When you are you gone.....
Cannot hold
Cannot be together
Cannot love
Cannot kiss
Cannot have each other
Must be strong,
And we must let go
Cannot say
What our hearts must know
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
Cannot dream
Cannot share
Sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel
How we feel
Must pretend it's over
Must be brave,
And we must go on
Must not say,
What we've known all along
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
How can I not love you..
[[Musical Interlude]]
Must be brave,
And we must be strong
Cannot say,
What we've known all along.
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
How can I not love you..
When you are you gone.....
Thursday, 17 February 2011
our future together
Tuhan,
hari ini dia mengganti nama msn dia menjadi Queen's, yang mana artinya adalah kepemilikanku.
sungguh, aku bahagia dengan itu. ya, akutahu itu adalah hal kecil tapi sungguh aku sangat bahagia saat itu.
Tuhan,
dia bilang, dia ingin melakukan apa saja agar aku bahagia.
tapi aku tidak boleh egois kan?
aku harus berbagi dengan orang-orang yang juga ia sayangi kan?
aku tahu aku lah yang paling penting untuknya, tapi empat hari tanpa dia..
sungguh aku tak bisa membayangkan.
kemarin, dua hari tanpa dia saja rasanya seperti tak bernyawa, apalagi ini?
empat hari...
sempat terbesit dalam benakku, "bagaimana kalau orang itu tidak ada? akankah ia benar2 untukku?"
aku tahu ini pikiran yang teramat sangat jahat.
tapi Tuhan, aku sungguh ingin menjadi satu-satunya orang yang penting dalam hidupnya. apa aku salah?
hari ini dia mengganti nama msn dia menjadi Queen's, yang mana artinya adalah kepemilikanku.
sungguh, aku bahagia dengan itu. ya, akutahu itu adalah hal kecil tapi sungguh aku sangat bahagia saat itu.
Tuhan,
dia bilang, dia ingin melakukan apa saja agar aku bahagia.
tapi aku tidak boleh egois kan?
aku harus berbagi dengan orang-orang yang juga ia sayangi kan?
aku tahu aku lah yang paling penting untuknya, tapi empat hari tanpa dia..
sungguh aku tak bisa membayangkan.
kemarin, dua hari tanpa dia saja rasanya seperti tak bernyawa, apalagi ini?
empat hari...
sempat terbesit dalam benakku, "bagaimana kalau orang itu tidak ada? akankah ia benar2 untukku?"
aku tahu ini pikiran yang teramat sangat jahat.
tapi Tuhan, aku sungguh ingin menjadi satu-satunya orang yang penting dalam hidupnya. apa aku salah?
Tuhan,
tadi pagi kami membicarakan tentang masa depan kami.
takut? ya jujur saja aku takut sebenarnya membicarakan tentang itu. tapi lagi dan lagi dia bilang bahwa ini akan menjadi akhir yang bahagia.
aku berharap seperti itu juga, aku boleh kan berharap?
sungguh, aku ingin dia adalah destinasi terakhir untukku.
walaupun aku tahu akan sangat sulit untuk kami melewati halangan yang ada.
tapi bukankah semua makhluk berhak untuk bahagia?
lalu bagaimana kalau aku hanya bahagia bila bersamanya walaupun semua orang menentang kami?
I really wish all the best for "ericieta"
xoxo,
ericieta "g"
Wednesday, 16 February 2011
today
dear God,
I thank you he is "here" now.. well, even still so far away from me, but at least i know where he is.
he said he cant sleep well tonight. i really wish i could know what's in his mind..
i asked him to sleep again and pray to you.. yes you. the God.
and his pray was;
I thank the Lord for giving me such an understanding Queen..
i know you're one, it's me and him that call you with a different name..
hope that we will call the God in one name.
amin
xoxo,
ericieta "g"
xoxo,
ericieta "g"
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